im an idiot

so downum is already planning next summer's trip, because its going to be a $5000 blow out for 2 months. I'd really like to go, but probably wont. nonetheless, i told him i'd send my old blog post about last years trip to the listserv, to stir interest. now, i've been going over some old blogs and i found one i made a long time ago called the secret life of. it only had 4 posts, and here they are. these were about jessica, and now that i go back and read this, i really do realize i am an idiot for even fucking with her, because i knew from the get go it wouldnt work out....

Wednesday, April 12, 2006
this is my new secret
so here is where i'll tell the world my secrets. if you cna find them

Thursday, April 13, 2006
feelings
so, i have feelings for someone. bummer... she is my friends friend. we've been hooking up for a week. shes so hot and has such a banging body. looks great naked. too bad she likes to hook up with everyone. i cant date her. i shouldnt even like her. this has bad news written all over it.

Monday, April 17, 2006
updates
im going to fall for this girl. hard if im not careful. last night made the 10th night in a row she has stayed over. i cant get enough of her. she is absolutely the most amazing girl. i must find a way to make this work and be with her.

Thursday, April 27, 2006
the l word
so, im falling in love with this girl. she is in love with me. shes told me a couple times. its scary, but i dont mind. seriously, she is who i've been looking for for a long time. i just wish she was a little older, then everything would be fantastic.