my old blog.

i just read some of my old blog. i keep it around because one day i want to look back at it and laugh when i remember shit that i will have otherwise forgotten. i even posted about that specific topic. i totally was true.... old post titled "i just got back":

from florida that is. had an amazing time. spent a week after that with my family. my grandma is sick, and my mom is basically taking care of her as if she were a big old baby. it makes me sad. sad for my grandma and for my mother having to take care of her. it shouldnt be my mom's job. she should be allowed to enjoy her retirement. after all, she did work hard to allow me to enjoy my youth. now she should be able to enjoy her oldness.

i'm going to use more line breaks, because big paragraphs are intimidating, according to luke. anyway, i'm back in fayetteville, about to being a job search. i need to get one of those right after college jobs. ya know the kind, the monday through friday nine to five no weekends extended holidays kind. my blog has again been neglected. hell, i doubt anyone still even reads this. nonetheless, its for me. one day after i've forgotten all about a lot of shit i'll go back and read this and remember something funny/exciting/awesome and it will be all worth it.
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see, totally worth it. grandma is gone now. almost a year. mom seems at peace with it. but will always be sad. i'm glad that stress of her life has ended and she can enjoy her remaining years before the alzheimers (sp?) sets in and she can't remember shit. it is inevitable that the women in my family lose their minds, and the men have heart attacks at an early age. fuck, im sad now.

entertainment value

im an asshole. i've always known that. i've been one for as long as i could speak and formulate complex thoughts. however, lately i've discovered my assholish ways are very beneficial for sending emails over the lawschool listserv. i enjoy this. i dont even know these people, nor have any reason for being a dick. it is purely for my own fucked up entertainment. i love it

so, either im really fucking hungover

or i have swine flu

yesterday i drank from 2-6, and had a lot of beer.
then i went to class from 7-9, then back to the bar and had a big whiskey drink. then i stayed awake hanging with this chick until 130 or so, went home feeling fine, but tired. this morning i wake up and feel like total shit. if i have swine flu, i swear im giving it to EVERYONE. thats right, EVERYONE.

im curious

if anyone i know is still reading this blog. it hasnt been updated in so long. well, at least not regularily. so, if someone is reading it. feel free to let me know.

im having a slight case of de ja voux

sometimes things in life happen and you think to yourself, wtf, havent i done this before? sometimes the answer seems like yes. but you know what? i just do it anyway. we fall so we can get back up and try again.

i think i like blogspot better.

thats why i havent posted any updates on the new wordpress blog. it will be deleted soon. i'm in the process of merging all the 5 posts i made there over here, and i'm going to use this blog again.

The new me. Brainmix

this is the address to my new blog. I like the layout of wordpress better, so that is where everything is located. I also imported everything from my open book blog, that was years old.

http://brainmix.wordpress.com

do it.

i've decided to close this blog

i'm not going to stop blogging about stuff. i'm just moving it to a new location. if you want the new info, you know how to get in touch with me.

time to clean up my facebook

and i want to remember these funny quotes, so i'll post them here

"well, when you find one you can stomach for more than 3 - 4 hrs at a time, it's worth investing more time" - David Scott on women

"A morning of awkwardness is far better than a night of loneliness." - Hank Moody

"Would I like her?" - Denny Crane
"Well shes female, has a pulse." - Alan Shore

"Fat chicks are like pillows that talk."
-David Arnold

i love jesus but i drink a little

watch this. laugh

funny video

i love it

this is america, god dammit

i dont want to watch the inauguration and see cameras go to the fucking elementary school in the Philippines that obama went to. i dont want to see a shot of Kenya with people sitting around watching the only tv that the nation owns. i dont give a fuck about those countries. obama shouldnt either. he should be concerned with our economy, and our problems here. fuck the news media. they should show shots of the laid off auto workers in detroit, the people still devastated by katrina and other hurricanes. fuck the suffering outside our borders. our people are suffering. fix them first.

washington dc

right now, is home to the largest number of bluetooth headsets ever assembled in one place.

the gayest thing ever

watch this commercial



i just saw it on tv. for a moment, i thought, i should get this for my father, since he is damn near deaf. however, at the 55 second mark in this commercial. i laughed my ass off. this did has this fucking thing in his ear, allowing him to hear what people are saying about him. there are some attractive girls talking about how cute he is. this wouldnt happen at all. they would talk about how big of a dousche bag he is for wearing that fucking headset around. what a tool.

day of worthlessness

i've done nothing today but watch basketball, and two nfl football games. i love being worthless.

old friends

i'm old. i have a lot of friends, and have seen more come and go, some more special than others. i'm trying to reconnect with a few. for some, it is easy. for others, not so much. i really think some friendships can stand the test of time, and i have some great friends that prove that. however, some only provide memories. some good, some bad, but memories nonetheless

i know my destination but im just not there

its almost 3 am. i can't sleep. i just lay here, thinking about life and the stresses involved with it. im supposed to be growing up, but i feel like all i am doing is getting older. more and more people around me are getting married, and moving forward. i am still alone, and feel like im stuck in the same place i was 5 years ago. sure, i have more education, but i don't know that i've really learned anything.

i remember i smelled that

i've always thought the sense of smell is important. dogs agree. if you lay out a dog's nasal membrane, it would have more surface area than the rest of his body. guess thats why dogs rely so much on the sense of smell. smell is interesting. i've always thought sounds, music in particular, could bring back certain memories. today i've decided that smell does the same thing. i am at my parents, but i didnt bring anything with me really, as i dont plan to stay long. i took a shower with some body wash that was here that i left from years ago. i havent used this brand in a long time, but the smell of it instantly takes me back to when it was left here, and i vividly remember that summer that i used this brand. i dont need to go into details about this, because that isnt the point, and its not a memory i'd prefer to openly discuss. however, i was thinking about other times when smells have been important. its like when your girl stays the night, when you get back in bed after you've walked her out in the morning (or afternoon) and your bed still smells all good like her. or when you dont wash a towel for a couple weeks because she used it to dry off with after a shower, and now she is gone for a long time, but it still smells like her, so from time to time you smell it when you are missing that person. yea, i know, lame and cheesy. its 2 am. i can't sleep. all i do is lay around and think. idle hands are the devils playground.

mike tyson makes me popular

when i first started this blog, i put a statistical analysis program in place to tell me stuff like, number of visitors, where they came from, what website redirected them here, etc etc. every so often, when i contemplate deleting this blog, i log in and see that it is still being viewed, and i decide to keep it around. today, being christmas, i'm bored as fuck. i've already opened all my presents, as have the rest of my family. i dont give a fuck about the lakers playing the celtics, because its not summer time, and i dont give a shit about the nba until summer, when the playoffs start. so, i was looking over the stats for this place. turns out, people from all over the world view this thing. there are really only 2 links that people google search that bring them here. they search for the lyrics to cars, or to the video i linked of mike tyson saying "i'll fuck you till you love me, faggot" located here:

http://thisiswhereitellitlikeitis.blogspot.com/2007/11/ill-fuck-you-till-you-love-me-faggot.html

that said, if you are one of those people, feel free to view the rest of my blog, if you can understand english. if you are looking for that particular video, you might be pleasantly entertained by my blog. or, you'll be really offended. if so, i dont care. have a nice day

braindead

it's christmas eve. well, christmas now, as it is after midnight. i can't sleep. i blame my 7-10 pm nap. what can i say, i drove to my parents, had dinner, and got sleepy. i've been braindead for the last few days. finals just drained me emotionally, physically, and mentally. i can't concentrate on anything for more than 10 minutes. i want to sleep. i have no desire to get up and do anything. i just physically need a day to recover from the disaster that was final exams. my family wants to ask me about school. i dont want to talk about it. what part of i dont want to talk about it dont you fucking understand? it stresses me the fuck out. i just want to enjoy my vacation, enjoy my being worthless, catch up with some folks, catch up on some sleep, and maybe watch a few movies. hell, i guess i will watch a movie tonight, as i cant sleep anyway. fuck the holidays. humbug