despite all my rage, i am still just a rat in a cage

yesterday, i get back from spa city at 1, by 2, im in the car, headed to ft smelly to meet willy b to go to dallas to the smashing pumpkins concert. will and his girlfriend, brittney, who is a fucking see you in tee, broke up, and he was bummed out. they were suppose to go to the concert in dallas together. he was like, i guessim just not going and will eat these tickets. me, being awesome, wanting to cheer him up, or at least take his mind off her bitchass, says, fuck it, i'll meet you in ft smith in 2 hours and we will go to dallas. my only stipulation was he had to drive so i could do work, which i did none of, because reading in a car gives me a headache, and so i could sleep on the way back, which i did little to none of. maybe an hour, 2 if im being generous. the show was great. pumpkins covered iron man and joan jett's i love rock n roll. i liked that shit a lot. pumpkins are old as fuck, we decided, but they still have it. nokia theater wasnt really conducive to a kick ass concert, but it was still a good show. dallas traffic was a bitch, and whatnot.

so, here is the meat of this. im glad will and his old lady broke up. i know it hurts, and lord knows i've had one or four, but if its not meant to be, and you just arent happy, sometimes you have to just cut lose. staying together for the sake of convinence is just stupid. ya, i know we are getting older, and i know people who have the mentality of 'we are too old. i cant find anyone better. i dont want to try.' etc etc. a good friend of mine, who fights with his girl a lot, once said to me, 'man, me and em are starting to remind me of you and katie.' in my head, im thinking, great, im glad im the guy who sets the standard amongst our group of friends as being the one who stayed in a relationship far too long for convenience. i guess if they can learn from watching my mistakes, better me than them, since it already has happened to me. too bad they are still together and will probably get married, because i dont think they will be happy. who knows, i could be completely wrong, but still, at least i'm moving forward.