spilled milk

i was having an interesting conversation with someone earlier. it threw me for a loop at first, but after thinking about it for a bit, i came to a realization. i'll explain. basically, there is this girl who i've been talking to, hanging out with, whatever. i'm into her, but to what extent, i dont know, hell its early, but she is definitely cool and there is definitely attraction on my part. im trying something new here. its basically full disclosure. you want to know something, just ask. im not saying im going to volunteer certain information, but its not something i am going to fudge or avoid or pretend it didnt happen or whatever, because i've done that, tried that; it didnt work. so, i'm being true, open, honest, whatever you want to call it. if someone cant want me for who i am, then i dont need to want them to begin with. maybe i will, maybe i wont, but with me, what you see is what you get. anyway, so she says she cant let herself like me because of school and blah blah blah... ya ya, fuck that. i like to cliff jump, and i can equate this to it. i jump in head first, not knowing how deep the water is. i dont want to bust ass, but if i do, hopefully the freefall is worth it. so basically she decides i think she is a complete bitch for telling me she doesnt know if she likes me or the attention that i give her or for actually being me. at first, i do think that. i'm kinda like, wow, ok, fuck wasting my time with this one. its kinda like being told you are going to start for the team just because there is no one else around who wants to play. but then i think about it for a second, and i'm like, wait a minute.... fuck that. why should i be mad or think she is a bitch? i mean, no sense in crying over spilled milk if you've never tasted it. but, what if milk is the greatest thing to ever touch your lips? besides, pick me or the attention i give, i dont care. the attention i give is me. thats just what i do. i think im a pretty good person, so im just going to keep doing what im doing, and let my awesomeness overwhelm any of these doubts that she is just into my attention. im worth a lot more than that.